no pain. no fear.

[coyotegoth]

There's a moment in Viva Zapata when Brando's character realizes that a friend has betrayed him, and must be sentenced to death. The friend accepts this, then looks at him and says, very gently: "Emiliano- do it yourself."

The drug in the syringe was pink. They had an IV tube in his arm, and an oxygen cone over his face. Boogie had asked me to have them wait while she sent him calming reiki energy from Europe, so we stood silently with our thoughts for a few minutes. Zorikh kissed his head; then quietly sobbed as I lay a hand on Midnight's head, and depressed the plunger of the syringe. In less time than it takes to tell, it was over. I whispered "No pain. No fear", as I closed his eyes.

Comments

[orobouros.livejournal.com]

safe passage.

and my condolences.

[porcelain72.livejournal.com]

I'm terribly sorry for your loss, I found myself getting teary-eyed at this. Take care.

[ladypeculiar.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetheart.
Be well.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

It is one of the hardest things in the world to do.
My heart goes out to you and yours.

[curmudgeon.livejournal.com]

What you did wasn't betrayal; it was a mercy and a blessing.

[dozius.livejournal.com]

:'(

[sola.livejournal.com]

ah; be well, all of you.

[oranjello.livejournal.com]

Sweet baby, it was the right thing to do. This part comes with the owning and loving of animals. My heart aches with yours. Much love and hugs. I am so sorry.

[goffchick.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

No, you're right; it wasn't about emotional intimacy, it was simply about having someone with you at the final moment. I hope I'm that lucky.

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Indeed; that's always the trick, isn't it...?

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Yes; that. Thank you *hug*

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

What do you do at a time like this...?

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Yes- that. =/

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

I thought of you tonight- wound up at the Scholar, with my apartment mate, Zorikh- and it made me feel better. Thank you for that.

*hugs and beeps*

[roadnotes.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. *hug*

[kenhighcountry.livejournal.com]

I've been through this, more than once.
It sucks.
May you all find peace.

[ambyguity.livejournal.com]

My cat, Bootsie, had FIV. In the end he stopped eating, drinking, moving...
My father said that it had to be the decision of both my brother and I.
I begged and pleaded to my brother to make the right decision.
My best friend was dying and I could take the pain away from him.
No more feeding him with a baby dropper of dissolved food.
No more washing his parched mouth with water.
No more moving his inflexible limbs to relieve the pain.

The day my brother finally gave me permission, I came home from musical rehearsal. Bootsie was right were I left him, on a blanket by the heater in the basement. Alone.

I will never forgive my brother for that. For the burial in the cold winter soil. For having to sing through the death of my best friend. Never will I forgive my brother for that.

Princess was the next to die and we didn't even know she was sick. Shih tzus have a genetic defect for congenital heart failure. I held her in my arms as she yelped from the heart attack, while she lost control of her bladder and bowels. I ran my hand over her face and cried as I carried her close to me the mile to the veterinarian. I nodded as they took her from me and tried to save her, but she was old. I let my tears moisten her nose as I said goodbye, stroking down her spine as they helped her let go.

Clancy was alone then. I knew he was sad. And I was sad. I lost my family... my friends... Dad let me foster care this tiny little ball of fur, Eclypse. He was all black and needed a mommy. Clancy's spirits were raised by this little one that would curl up with him. Then we found a home for Eclypse, and Clancy's job was complete.

I was there for him too.


You did the right thing. And I'll be here for you if you need me.

[ophi.livejournal.com]

This is a lot better, believe me, than if he would have stayed away, never to come back home. Sometimes I still wonder: was my cat taken inside by someone ? Was he killed by a car ? Did he get an attack like this and did he die all by himself somewhere in a bush ?

Yesterday my little black one, Purpur (dutch for Purple) stayed away 36 hours too in the snow: made me feel uneasy too, to say the least.

Boogie will be thankful, I'm sure.

[drood.livejournal.com]

There's nothing I can add that no one else hasn't already said. My condolences. I've been through it, and it's never easy. My thoughts are with you.

[humblepie.livejournal.com]

Strength to you and yours. Hugs too.

[ladybug007.livejournal.com]

You are a braver man than I.

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Do you know- Boogie's Belgian, and she's over there right now. Small world :),

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

I promised him I would, if it came to that..

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Thank you. S'funny- my original heading for this was "Cursum Perficio."

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hug* In happier news, an MTM on the way.

[goffchick.livejournal.com]

Take it one day at a time. Know you did the right thing. They were happy and loved and they had good lives.

Its hard, but its the price we pay for love.

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Thank you- and you as well.o

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

I was rereading this post, and I saw this; there's been a lot of water under the bridge since then, but I realized I had never thanked you for it.

Thank you.